I need to stop, breathe, and relax.
Sometimes I just need to remember to take some time to smell the roses.
Especially when there is something to look forward to, I tend to live for that thing and not enjoy the present and the gift that it is as much as I should.
But I'm working on that. I have two precious young and growing children who need me to be my best and happiest self right now. Not in a few weeks or months. I frequently feel like I need to be doing to feel like I'm living, and that's a hard thing for me to get past.
I use the excuse of school a lot. "When I finish school, then I'll do such and such." But I need to do some of those things now. Make more art, write more frequently, worry less, pray more. I need to try and enjoy the fleeting hard times and try to see that they ultimately are helping me to improve, and change, and grow because who knows what could happen in the next many months? And who knows what I could miss?
Like the beginning lyrics of Little River Band's "Lady":
Look around you, look up here
Take time to make time
Make time to be there
Look around, be a part
Do you sometimes struggle to live in the present the way I do?
